Where is My Superhero?

I wore this shirt today.

Luckily, I already know the answer to that question.  In the last few days (days?  Could it really only be days?) I've been reminded again of the kind of man I married.  He has been patient, kind, understanding, loving, supportive, unselfish and every other good adjective you could possibly come up with.  In short, he has been amazing.  He has been a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold and a listening ear.  He's encouraged me to keep going when I felt like I couldn't do it.  He's told me to stop and rest and cut myself some slack when that's what I needed most.  There just aren't enough words nor nearly enough space for me to adequately express how wonderful my sweet husband is.  I've always suspected he might be a superhero.  Now I'm sure.  Yes, I love that man--to infinity and beyond, as my kids like to say.  I'm sure its at least that much.

I'm sure many of you have been wanting an update on our current situation.  We have been bombarded with new information, new medical terms, new test names and new procedures with which we have previously been unfamiliar.  By the time we have discussed--at length--the situation with our doctors, discussed the situation between ourselves, and then relayed the pertinent information to our immediate families, I have been left drained.  Although there are still test results we are waiting on, they are unlikely to have a significant impact on the reality of our situation.  And that reality is that there is almost no chance (and I am hesitant to even add the "almost" in that sentence) of long-term survival of this sweet little boy and very little chance of short-term survival.  And while we both acknowledge the Lord's power and ability to perform a miracle in our lives and the life our baby, we both feel that that is not the path He has in store for us.  While the news is devastating, and I in no way want to minimize the difficulty of this reality, the news is only devastating in terms of this baby's earthly life.  In terms of his sweet spirit and our knowledge that families are forever, the news is anything but devastating.  And that is what we are trying to remember and focus on as we face uncharted territory.  As we approach this Thanksgiving season with a heaviness in our hearts, we also feel an overwhelming amount of love, gratitude and joy, for the innumerable blessings we have in our lives.  We have been so blessed to see, recognize and feel the love our Heavenly Father has for us, and the awareness he has for our individual circumstances.  I have been awed and humbled by it.  And while there is no denying our sorrow, we are choosing to find happiness in the small and simple things around us.  We feel "encircled about eternally in the arms of His love."  And for that, we are profoundly grateful.